I lost 33 friends last week…

I lost 33 friends last week…Facebook friends…not sure why I was unfriended… but after 7 months off of social media, I posted for the first time and lost 33 friends... was it something I said? LoL

A year ago, that may have made me question what I was posting or sharing but not anymore. I’ve spent most of my life feeling like I wasn’t good enough and questioning every decision I made.

I’ve dedicated the last 2 years of my life to getting healthy, from the inside out and I’m not going to let outside opinions affect my life anymore. I’ve let go of a lot of the past personas I used to wear, that were never really ME. 

I never wanted to be a “party girl” but I wore that persona for almost 20 years…I can’t begin to explain the relief I feel by honestly saying, “I never liked the person I was when I drank and being alcohol free has made the last 2 years of my life, the BEST 2 years of my life. So far.” 

I never wanted to be “fake happy” but I spent decades trying to cover up how I really felt deep down…I drank away all the feelings I didn’t want to feel…and wound up with lots of surface-level friendships.

I never wanted to be ME…because I was never really ME. I was wearing a lot of masks and personas that I thought could help me fit in… 

But NOW…I sigh with relief…because I’m done wearing those personas that aren’t really me. All those masks that helped me fit in with the crowd for decades, don’t fit ME anymore. 

NOW, I can be open and honest about who I am, deep down at my core, and if people can’t accept that, I’m cool with that. I don’t need everyone to love me, or like me, or accept me. Because I deeply and completely love and accept myself.

So I’m not offended when people unfriend me. They were probably friends with my party girl persona and now don’t vibe with alcohol-free E and that’s fine… 

Maybe I’m too spiritual, too deep, too caring, too unwilling to settle for a superficial life…

Maybe I’m just too much something for some people and that’s ok…

Because I am too happy with who I am to care what other people think or worry about why they unfriended me… another sigh of relief…

So if you’re still here, thank you for loving and accepting me. I love you too.

If you want to know more about how I changed my life, check out my new monthly membership: Live Well with E Bell: Lessons on Health, Happiness & Healing. I’d love to help you let go of those old personas, figure out who you really are and live your best life. 

More info and sign up here: https://www.bewellwithebell.com/offers/KZzbJK6N

And yes, this is the same membership I’ve mentioned previously…

New name, same end game…

 Last month, I created a monthly membership for people who are ready to love and accept themselves, create healthy habits and live their best life.

I realize now that the name I chose did not reflect my mission.

I want to take the focus off of dieting and prioritize health, happiness and healing.

As I’ve been creating the content for my online course and membership, my mission was clear. 

To help people heal their past, so they can live happily in the present and have a healthy future.

Naming my membership “I’m DONE Dieting” was a reflection of the frustration I felt after 30 years of dieting and how I was DONE. But that title still made people think about dieting, myself included.

After some reflection and soul searching, I am very proud to share: Live Well with E Bell: Lessons on Health, Happiness & Healing. 

Because the main lesson I’ve learned after 30 years of dieting, is that it was never about my weight.

It was about loving and accepting myself, on the inside.